It dawned on me about an hour ago… due to some random drama, that I have not posted in my tumblr blog for awhile!

What’s the point of having a tumblr blog if I’m not going to keep it relevant and up to date? I guess I could make excuses like “blah blah I’ve been so busy with work and school and my super demanding-high-pressure-stressful-rocket-science-Olive Garden serving job. In reality, any of you who know me well know that this is all a lame attempt at sarcasm.

So let’s start with the things that IIIII feel I need to express.

I’ve been doing a lot of backtracking in my mind as of late, and I’ve been putting things into perspective. I finished the school year on a positive note, and did well. I only have 2 things I really need to worry about this summer. Well maybe 3, depending on how proactive I become, and to what degree I decide to get my ass in gear.

First- gotta get through that stupid accounting class. Enough said.

Second- gotta get through treatment. Successfully this time. I promised a certain special someone that I’d at least try to do 111. So I’ve got about 15 pounds to go, and then there’s maintenance and everything that comes with it. But I’ve realized it IS all about baby steps, and I’m hopeful. I have a lot of good friends and family that love and support me.

I have a new boyfriend named Mark who I’ve really grown to care about a lot. I’m not going to go into too much detail due to the fact that I respect his privacy, but one thing I will say is that the relationship feels like the right fit. He accepts me and the package of bullshit/baggage that comes with me and is nothing but supportive. This is something that means more to me than I could ever try to express.

So now I have a mini-rant. Something that’s been on my mind today that I’d like to get out, and once it’s out there, I’ll make peace with the situation and move on.

Truthfully, I don’t like to call it a rant. I’m not “mad” per se, but I do become concerned when people I care about are involved.

Anyhow. We all know blogs like this are more or less a liability of sorts. We are responsible for the consequences of whatever we post here. Honestly, I do NOT mind who reads this, and I have no ultimate goal that comes with it, besides the general need to get my own thoughts out of my head and into words. The people who I know read this are free to interpret it however they want and for whatever reason.

BUT

If you don’t know me, or anything about me… I understand you’ll probably form an opinion of me based on what you’ve read here. This is fine, but you have to realize this is just one facet. It’s the same as reading a random journal. And how do I put this delicately….

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Using information read here to meddle with someone’s life or to sway their choices is both alarming and sad. Most of my reader’s are at a point in their lives where they’ve (hopefully) learned how to respect or at least deal with their fellow people’s choices (as well as their own) and live comfortably in side by side in their communities. However, I suppose this isn’t always the case. And so I ask you all respectfully to remember that were all human, that we’ve all jumped through hoops to get where were at and live comfortably, and that we all have a common goal of finding happiness, whatever that may be. If we care about people, we should respect their decisions and try our best not to manipulate or get in the way of them. Or at least give each other a chance to make these decisions. If we end up worse off because of them, the loving, genuine thing to do is to THEN step in and make our opinions known, or throw a life raft where needed. Interfering beforehand rarely ever proves to be effective and will probably drive a stake through the friendship. It also demonstrates a persons true colors and motives. Personally speaking, I can’t have much respect for someone who sneaks around behind my back to warn my friends of my flaws and issues because they “worry” about me. It’s childish, and shows weak character. So let’s all keep this in mind.

With that said, my slate is clean, and I’m getting set for a couple of weeks of awesome gigs!

Friday- Bohemia with Souvs and Basic Space

Tues the 24th- Wunderbar with Elise Reneau

June 7/14th? Troubadour Tues at Brixx with Elise once again.

Need more deets? Talk to me on the ol’ facebook device. I’ll send ya the event links. ;)

Thanks for reading!

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