Blarghy-arg.

I want to vent, but I want to make sure that noone assumes that I’m venting about them directly.

I’m mostly just upset with myself for the stupid nonsense I get myself into, time and time again. I don’t even know how I do it. I love… a lot. I love all of my friends so much, and my family…. and I love my boyfriend dearly.

But I somehow always manage to fuck shit up….I’ve been nothing but a waste of space lately, and a doctor’s appointment today confirmed that I’m seriously off my fucking rocker. I’m thinking about playing the hermit role for awhile, or be an ostrich and hide my head in the sand. Let things figuratively blow over; this way if I’m making a mess of anyone’s life, it’s just my own.

We’ll see. For now I shall punish myself in my own silly ways until I deem myself worthy of friendships and the people I love again. Either way… just letting you all know that I’m sorry for any shenanigans that may have inconvenienced you, and that I just…. really needed to vent. Ha.